Last night was the breaking point on my cleanse adventure, so to speak. I was 4 days short of finishing, and still sticking to the cleanse 100% by all measures, but my brain was getting LOUD! I bought a bottle of wine, poured myself a teacup of it, and relaxed with my husband and a cool DVD about the wacky Norwegian Band, Hurra Torpedo. About 5 minutes later, my husband looked at me and said," You're happy as a clam, aren't you?" I'll just say this poor man has been very understanding and mellow through the 3 week long crazy-land I've been in, and I'm sure he was relieved to see me kicked back and laughing.
Some things I've learned about myself on this 21(-4) day adventure:
*Due to being insanely demanding on myself anyway, any plan that calls for analyzing or cataloging my food, weight, exercise, etc. may not be the best for me. I need "mellow out" cleanses instead :p
*I don't know why, but focusing on what's not going in my body creates stress.
*Just the idea of not being able to have my usual comfort/reward/special occasion items like wine and coffee gets me all upset. I don't even want any most of the time, but thinking I can't have them gets me all out of sorts.
*Overdoing it on meditation/imagery/positive thinking in a short period of time seems to do the opposite of what it's supposed to for me.
That all being said, the minute I decided the cleanse was over, had my little sip of wine, and relaxed, that surge of self-love I was waiting for during the whole cleanse showed up! I did my dry brushing before my bath, and woke up this morning ready for my green smoothie and looking forward to exercising.
IT'S ALL IN MY MIND!! Hahaha.....I can say, at least, that I now fully understand the power in how I look at and think about things. The cleanse involves behaviors that I want in my life all the time, but feeling forced to do them takes the shine right off. So, I won't be documenting my cleanse activities for these last few days. I will instead be enjoying myself and celebrating that fact that I have all the choice in the world, and choose habits that support health and wellness.